Muddled Thoughts And Moments Of Calm Amidst Constant Chaos

For quite some time now, I have been living my life on the edge.

Some days are slow and idle while I ponder intently over what to eat next, and some days resemble the memories I've captured on my last day of school - frenzied, teary-eyed, and surviving through it anyway. As of late, my coping mechanisms look slim, and my chances of finding some great company to share a few highlights of my day look slimmer.

But here are some ways I manage to get through these prolonged days looking cheery and light. (Evidently, after a full-fledged session of blowing my nose!)

i.

Drinking a hot beverage while the rain is pelting outside the window is sometimes perhaps the only solution to our problems. The world stops whirring; and just for a while - the calmness, the composure, and the feeling of being at absolute peace with yourself engulf you, leaving you feeling warm and comfortable. Isn't that what we all long for? perhaps a sense of belonging, perhaps just, peace.

''The sun enables life, the rain grants its safe passage'' ~ Anonymous.

ii.

One of my utterly cherished ways to cope up with the brutal reality is getting lost. Getting lost in the literary world - reading the best works of all time and catching up with my TBR list! Or sometimes, just getting lost by venting my feelings on a piece of paper (also known as journalling!) is extremely therapeutic. After a while, things would go back to being shitty just as they initially were, but what matters is that it gives you the courage to go on and to just let it be. Let things take their own route and feel content with what you have.

iii.

Normally, on a quite sluggish day when I don't have deadlines and assignments to submit, I plan an outing with myself to go for a stroll in a nearby park. Parks here are crowded, with people taking walks and lovers holding hands; friends playing a cricket match, being completely oblivious to the world around them. I guess that's just their way to escape reality for a bit. And for me - my long meandering walks. Also sometimes to question life, clear my head, and when I have a creative idea to brainstorm.

“When I'm in turmoil, when I can't think, when I'm exhausted and afraid and feeling very, very alone, I go for walks. It's just one of those things I do. I walk and I walk and sooner or later something comes to me, something to make me feel less like jumping off a building.”

~ Jim Butcher, Storm Front.

A list of songs & podcasts that help me get a hold of myself:

• Kinare - Queen (Bollywood)

• Is it just me? - Sasha Sloan

• Thoughts - Sasha Sloan

• New Romantics - Taylor Swift

• Poems to calm down to - Megha Rao (Podcast)

When after you’re done reading this, I hope you feel seen. I hope that you understand that your anxieties, struggles, breaks are valid. I hope you get the courage to be vulnerable for a while and find your moment of calm in the constant chaos.

Cheers! :)